He awaits me
In corners and blind alleys
Full tilt neon boogie
In get back blues
I speak
His name loudly
Damn near scream his name
In a delta rhythm
Heel clicking on sidewalks
Broken glass sparks
Moist and hot
In a basin of water
His power over me
Strong and relentless
So I run faster, wider
My hips sway stactically
Pearls on the river
And blood in my veins
Ridiculously
Drawn towards his light
As if I didn’t know better
I confessed
To my preacher
I just knew
A longing like this
Had to be a sin
He only agreed
And wiped electric
Off his chin
In that tired knowing
Of one that has
Been full before
Has been sated
At the table
No blessing for me
Just a pat on the hand
Even he was afraid
Of a new embrace
That could start
Him to moving
Into the void, again
Still I speak
Him into being
Ordered and
Disordering my words
Staining my radiance
In a swirling mist
Allowing the water
To cover me
To fill the spaces
He left open
Cleansing vowels
My reflection
Breaking shadows
Into more shade
I’m ready
To cross over
Spitting the flavor
Onto the pavement
Rebukement
Of the taste
On the tip
Of my tongue
My flesh is weathered
And bears the mark
Of his days
Across my belly
Around my hip
I span the length
With fingers spread
Until prints
Coil together in
A nest of promises
Unfulfilled sacredness
Trembling at the edge
Of a passerby’s irises
Sightless again
And I just want
The scent of him
In my mouth
To quench this thirst
This knowing
This lightening
Scorching my breast
The dawn is near
Though I know
I won’t sleep again
Closing my door
On the life outside
And drinking tea
In a broken cup
I am ashamed
At susceptibility
Of words spoken
In whispers
Wrapped in linens
And perched on windowsills
Holding the pain
Behind my smiles
He comes to me
In lonely thoughts
But I know hear
For I no longer
Believe
In love
© NP 5/20/11
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